| Location | Newcastle Upon Tyne |
| Age | 27 years |
| Cause of Death | Overdose |
| Date of Birth | 07/10/1972 |
| Date of Death | 24/10/1999 |
| Visitors | 5,083 since 10/04/2007 |
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Dear son of Elizabeth and John, brother of Michael and a dear dad to Ashley.
Died tragically of a heroin overdose 2 days after being released from prison. Sadly missed by all
the familyxxxxx
Stephen your legacy will live on, i will make sure it does son xx
A Mother’s Love For Her Son
Our son Stephen was born on 7th October 1972, I was so proud when I held him for the first time in
my arms looking at his beautiful blue eyes and his blonde hair as he grew his hair was platinum
blonde and his eyes were so big and blue I thought to myself, “you are going to break a lot of
girls hearts when you grow up” but I didn’t realise that it would be mine.
Stephen was a normal mischievous child always playing jokes and laughting,his smile would light up a
room, when he turned 10yrs old he joined the scouts then went on to join the army cadets, he looked
so handsome in his uniform. Stephen said that he would join the regular army when he left school,
it’s all he wanted to do.
When Stephen was 15yrs old he met Jen, they seemed to be well suited, soon he forgot about going to
his army cadets and drifted away from it altogether, when he was 20yrs old his girlfriend was
expecting their baby, he was born on 19th August 1993 and they named him Ashley Stephen he looked
just like his dad when he was born.It was a rocky relationship, Jen was always putting Stephen out
and I would take him back into our home then one Christmas when I had taken him back I discovered by
accident that my beautiful son was injecting heroin. I was horrified. Stephen said he was sorry but
he couldn’t stop. My son was a heroin addict it’s the worst fear a mother could ever have.
We lost Stephen to heroin on 24th October 1999, he had just had his 27th birthday in prison for a
shoplifting offence. On the day Stephen was released from prison he looked lovely his eyes were
clear and his skin was clear, he asked me if he could have a bath to freshen up (get the prison
smell off) was his words, when he came downstairs he smelled lovely he said to me “I might meet a
lass tonight” and I said “yes with all your dad’s smelly's on i'm sure you will.” Off he
went to town, two days later came a knock at the door about 7-45pm it was two police officer's as
soon as I saw them I knew it was Stephen, they came to tell us what we were dreading. Stephen was
found dead in the Haymarket toilets with the syringe still in his groin, it was a heroin overdose.
Because Stephen had been clean for 6 weeks his body couldn’t take it. We had to wait 3 weeks
before we could have his funeral because the police were waiting for toxicology reports so they
wouldn’t release his body.
Stephen was on heroin for 3 years although he was on it for 18 months before we knew about it, we
managed to get him into rehab 3 times and 3 times he signed himself out, he told me that he
couldn’t stand the pain trying to come off it so we accepted that he was a heroin addict and we
gave him all the support that he needed even as far as giving him money to pay off the dealers as
they battered him on the hands with a hammer till they broke them, I couldn’t stand to see him
being hurt like that, the dealers even phoned threatening us.
We have another son Michael who will be 39yrs old in July he is still single and has a council flat.
I am glad to say Michael doesn’t touch heroin thank goodness. I can’t begin to imagine what it
must be like to have more than one heroin addict in the family as I do know that in some family's
this is the case.
Stephen was dead 3yrs before we found out about Newcastle PROPS (Positive Response Overcoming
Problems of Substances) we never had any counselling or support whatsoever until then, Props has
been a great help to my husband and myself, in fact I think if we didn’t find out about Props we
would have separated because we couldn’t talk to each other about Stephen’s death until we met
our props family support worker, you can imagine the pressure that was lifted once we began talking
to each other about Stephen. People like us need people like there are at Props.
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A BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO HAS LEFT TRIBUTES AND LIT CANDLES. KEEP IT UP TO KEEP STEPHEN'S
MEMORY ALIVE FOR ALL ETERNITY..........GOD BLESS YOU ALL XXX
Mom, Please Listen
Mom, please listen to me
as I take the time to write.
I see parents struggling daily,
Their pain is such a fight...
All of us who've gone
And left the rest of you behind...
We're ok, Mom, I promise ...
Heaven is beautiful and God is kind.
You used to tell me that one day
God would call and take you home.
You told me you'd make me strong
So I would stand tall when alone.
But things happen, Mom
That does not go in our plans,
I wasn't scared, Mom,
When God held out his hand.
I didn't want to leave you,
I didn't have time to say good-bye
When the angels said, "Come with us"
There wasn't time to question why.
I've watched you daily, Mom.
It hurts to see you cry.
I don't want you to be unhappy,
Just because we didn't get to say good-bye.
Tell others what I'm telling you,
So many parents need to know
That Earth was just a layover
We had another place to go.
I know you miss me, Mom
I know your heart was broken in two.
But God really neededme
Because my earthly life was through.
I''m always alongside you...
I smile and touch your hair.
I whisper "Mom, I love you"
You just can't see me there.
I'm the one that gently touches you
On your shoulder when you're sad.
I'm happy now that you finally found
God again, and are no longer mad.
Tell the parents, Mom, for me
That all of us kids are okay.
God had plans for our lives
When he called us home that day.
I love you, Mom, I always will
And remember I'm not far away.
We're going to be together
When God calls out your name.
LOVE ALWAYS ALISON XXXXXX
A MOTHERS PAIN..........
HOW CAN I DISCRIBE A MOTHERS PAIN
KNOWING THAT LIFE WILL NEVER BE THE SAME
WITHOUT THE LOVE OF HER CHILD ANYMORE
KNOWING THAT HER CHILD IS WAITING AT HEAVENS DOOR
THAT HER PAIN WILL ALWAYS LIVE IN HER HEART
UNTIL THE DAY THAT MOTHER AND CHILD ARE NO LONGER APART
IF WE ARE LUCKY WE HAVE MEMORIES TO KEEP
WE ALSO HAVE OUR DREAMS WHEN WE EVER SLEEP
WE LOOK FOR ANY SIGNS THAT GIVE US ANY HOPE
WE ALL FIND IT SO HARD AT TIMES WE CANNOT COPE
WE TRY TO STAY STRONG THAT IS SO HARD TO DO
A MOTHERS PAIN IS ALWAYS PART OF HER TOO
THE TEARS SHE CRIES EVERY SINGLE DAY
BECAUSE SHE KNOWS THE PAIN WILL ALWAYS STAY
THERE IS NO MAGIC PILLS TO MAKE THE PAIN GO AWAY
IT LIVES ON INSIDE A MOTHER EACH AND EVERY DAY......MAM xxxxxxxxxxx
copyright Rosalind Roberts
KEEP MY MEMORY
Keep my memory with you, For memories never die; I will be there with you,
When you look across the sky.
I will be there in the clouds,
In the birds that fill the air;
In the beauty of a fragrant rose,
You will find my memory there.
You will feel me in the tenderness, Of a tiny baby's touch;
You will hear me if you listen, In the twilight's gentle hush.
When your hearts are heavy,
And you feel that you are alone;
Just reach down deep inside of you,
For your heart is now my home. I will ALWAYS be with you,
I will never go away;
For I will live on in your hearts, Forever and a day.
Author unknown
lOVE TO YOU AND YOUR FAMILY
SHARON AND FAMILY XXXX
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Missing you Stephen
I Do Believe
by Jennifer Janiszewski
There is nothing i can do,
to make him come back
There are no words I can say,
that can replace he words you long to hear
There are no answer's I can give,
that will satisfy your questions
There is not another soul I can introduce you to that will ever replace his
And, there is no love I can offer that will ever replace the love you shared
I can not promise your broken heart will ever be complete
I will not say it could have been worse
I will not deny it was a tragedy
I will not lie and tell you he will come back
He never really left
I do promise he hears you when you speak
I will say he loves you no matter the distance
I will not deny he is in a better place
And, I will not lie; he is waiting to greet you someday
He is every you step you take
He is in everything you do
He is the air you breathe
He is every beat of your heart
" He is like the wind. You can not see him...but you will always feel him"
I miss you so much son xxx
My Garden
As I look out my window from my lonely room
The spring is here and the flowers are in bloom.
The cool gentle wind blows away all my tears
even after all these long, long years.
The warm summer sun dries my tears all away
as I once again try to through another day.
The beautiful trees of Autumn stand so tall
as I watch all the leaves beginning to fall.
The snow in the winter looks pretty and white
and my garden is now such a beautiful sight.
I wish you could share all the seasons with me
But sadly I know this can no longer be.
But I know in my heart in your garden above
You look down on me and shower me with love.
The sun is your warmth, your radiant smile,
The rain is the tears that I shed all the while.
The snow is the coldness that I feel in December
nd that snowman you made I will always remember.
So I will look after this garden with so much love
as I know you will look after God's in Heaven above.
copyright Jean Cavanagh 2009
One Day We Will All Be Together
♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥
When we all meet again
We will be as happy as can be
There's happiness to come
Just you wait and see
♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥
Just be patient
All will be aright
Just round the corner somewhere
Our loved ones will be insight
♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥
Until that times comes
You will visit in our dreams
You will wrap your arms around us
All is not as bad as it seems
Written by Jayne Roddy
♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥♥ ♰ ♥
THE PAIN INSIDE JUST WONT GO AWAY
IT WILL NOT LEAVE ME FOR A DAY
THEY SAY ITS BETTER TO HAVE LOVED AND LOST
BUT THEY FORGET TO TELL YOU ABOUR THE COST
THE COST OF A LIFE THAT WAS SO DEAR
THE COST OF MY SON HES NO LONGER HERE
HE DIED SO MANY YEARS AGO
WHY HE WENT I STILL DONT KNOW
THE PAIN AS NEVER GONE AWAY
ITS WITH ME NOW HERE TO STAY
HE WAS MY SON I LOVED AND LOST
NO-ONE BUT ME WILL KNOW THE COST
SON I WILL NEVER FORGET YOU
LOVE AND MISS YOU SO MUCH XXXX
copyright Ros Roberts
It's raining outside..
So cold and wet
Is it sunny in heaven?
It is I bet
Water falls from the sky..
Just like my tears..
That I cry
I cry so much..
And I hurt with pain
Since you went to heaven..
I've not been the same
I miss you so much..
As the days go by
My tears fall slowly..
As I wipe my eyes
I think of you..
With joy and pride
Please keep me safe..
And walk by my side
I look up to the sky..
As I think of you with love
My sweet Angel..
In heaven above
copyright Jackie Thomas 29/07/09.
Love and Hugs Barbara xx
When you died
Every time I breathe
I know that you dont.
Every time I open my eyes,
I know that you wont.
Every time I smile,
I know that you cant.
Every time I cry,
I know you wont hear me.
Every time I walk,
Im aware that no steps lead me to you.
Every time I speak your name,
I know there will be no response.
Every time I sigh - cry - and die inside,
I know that you have gone forever.
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